Moments

moment Number 1 !!!!

 i knew in this moment that i was forever changed.  i was forever her mom, that my love for her ran deep and wide.  i knew that i would give my life for her, i knew that my purpose in life had changed, all in this moment.   

 i think its kinda funny looking back at this moment Number 2 !!!!
the day Tucker was born, i was on my way to lawton, to take pictures for his birth-mom.  i had my camera all ready to go, and on my way.  i got half way to lawton, and Mckenzie calls, with the exciting news that K was in labor.  i was the first one there,  i was oh SO SO excited for my sister to have her moment that changed her life.  it just happened to work out that i got to be in the delivery room, cameras in tow.  i was standing right there, watching the love unfold.  i got to see adoption in the saddest, and happiest moment.  i was there.
i think God let me see this so clearly for a reason.  i think He knew "the plan" all along.  i think that He knew i needed to be in there.  My heart longs for my moment #3 to get here.  sometimes i feel like time is not passing.  i just want to be a mom again.  as we all know patients are not something that flows from within, however God continues to teach me that His timing is perfect.  i trust that He is holding our baby dear, somewhere in some ladies uterus.  i trust that He has picked that baby for us.  i just am so ready to see "the plan" unfold.
our home study is this Saturday, and after that we will be ready to move forward.  however we will continue to work hard to pay off all the "Lobster" stuff before we go LIVE !!!
God is still where we find our peace, comfort, and we pray to Him that He sends our baby right into the arms that have been planned for it.

2012

my all inspiring older sister had a 2012 blog.... SO.......

these will be in the most random order ever.....

New years 2012 

 in May Emrie caught her first BIG fish and her dad was real excited.

 In February 2012, the Beauty Shop celebrated 6 years of business.  i count my blessings and these ladies are defiantly a huge blessing to me.  Thank you girls for making a place of work feel just like home.

 June-  We celebrated a year full of Dad's.  i am thankful for each role these men play in my life.

 All summer we played at the lake, this is 4 generations of fun girls.

 Spring Time-  Emrie learned how to ride her bike without the training wheels.  Her Dad was a great teacher, her mom was a nervous wreck.  She however picked it up and took off.

 Easter 2012-   Bunnies and the park.

 May 2012- We had the Cain Family reunion at dad's house.

 July -  our big, beautiful baby girl.

 September-  Bowling magic.

 August- Emrie goes to school all DAY long.

 August-   Someone Turned 5 !!!!!

 October - We added Bennett to our family.  His big cousin thinks he is real great.

 RV livin.  We went to Shamrock TX to meet and greet our new baby boy.  It was love at first sight.

 We went to "thunder alley"  which was super fun till people started shooting people.

 Em and Daddy went to the father-daughter dance in November.  i think she thinks her daddy hung the moon.

 In october we had some fun trick or treating with a donkey, captain america, and little tiger.

 early summer- We helped with VBS.

 there were fireworks on 7-4 and we watched them

 Kagan and em have really become best buds.  this summer we went to little Niagara and they loved playin in the cold water.

 swimming is all we like when its 100+ degrees outside.

 Visited and watched several rodeos.  its a common ground for this family.

 in October we found out that our "embryo adoption" worked.   We had "baby lobster" for 12 weeks, and lost our precious baby on 12-10.

 giving back in a little way.  December

 December 15th-22 We ventured to Crested Butte, CO

 santa was visited.  she requested and received Baby butterscotch (horse)

 Thanksgiving 2012

 Christmas time

 our family pics this year

After a year of many ups and downs, i am beyond blessed to have my family.  We are all healthy and strong.  i would of defiantly changes a few events of 2012, however i know that its all part of our story. i am just blessed to be part of the wonderful family i have.   i pray that 2013 brings contentment, peace, and full hearts.