Let me just start by saying, I LOVE FOOD. i love it in a way not many people understand. i think, dwell, dream, plan for food. about 2 months ago, we were talking about "strong-holds" i stayed quite for the first time ever, bc i did not want to admit my strong-hold. however deep inside, i went straight to FOOD. so on Jan 1st, me and len started our weight loss. i will not lie- those first few weeks were NO FUN at all. but as time has moved on, we have finally got a handle on things. we set our ending date to may 1st, the winner gets new jet skis or new boobs. (neither of which will happen bc we are buying a baby) so we joined the gym, bought healthy food, and litterly changed our whole way of living.
for me it's a lot more then losing weight, for me its been a processes of getting ME back. for the last 2 years i lost myself in infertility. i gave my whole heart, soul, body, and mind to the process. i spent countless hours, money, and emotions trying to achieve a goal. loosing weight is much the same, but in a healthy normal way, instead of crazy hormone way. i finally LET GO, of what i have no control over and came to peace with my own heart. i cannot describe to you the feeling of peace, the way i have experienced it. God grants you the things we all need, if we are faithful to Him. being at the gym a lot, has given me "focused time." time to hear my own thoughts, for so very long i have been up/down on hormones, i feel like i lost Me. through this time i have also grown deeper with God, i love listening to praise songs while i exercise, its quality time with Him. it really has been so good to feel like my relationship with Him is a priority, all the while i am getting stronger.
me and len also have bonded and have a common interest, so thats good for our relationship.
Win = Win all the way around.
so in summary, the Hays family is felling better about life.
other things may change me, but i start and end with family.
