fertile gals

have you ever scene the mommas at wal-mart with shirtless, shoeless, dirty babies. the moms that forgot to brush their hair but have a cigarette and LIGHTER. Or how about when your in a restaurant and the mom next to you has a newborn and she is twitching from her drugs. now don't get me wrong here... i believe that every baby born in this world has a purpose. even those millions of babies who don't get the opportunity to breath on their own. Every Egg+Sperm, little tiny heartbeat should still always be treated with tender loving care.

i often find myself asking or even begging God WHY, WHY, and WHY can these crazy no good moms get pregnant over and over and i can't. Fertility struggles are not for the Week hearted. i mean it takes a Physical, and emotional toll on your heart and soul. in so many ways its one of the most frustrating and hurtful thing to struggle with. it takes your heart from anxiousness to excitement and failure all in the matter of a month. the meds make you INSAIN, the intimacy that it should take to have a baby is literally OUT the door. It is Rough !!!

at the end of this journey i hope i have a bundle of joy to love on and i hope that i have no time to write a blog about my life. but i also know that God feels the parts of your heart that you seek Him hardest at. he gives you peace in the midst of a hormone storm. He gives and takes or choose not to make life. He is the Almighty and He knows what should of, could of, and would of. He answers each burning question and blesses you when your not looking.

whatever happens i know For Sure that i am blessed beyond what i deserve.

she was in the mood for baking. so this was our creation. we are ready for the bake off.

we were busy playing horses, when i said "let me take your picture" i wish u could hear her carrying on about all her horses names and what the love. she is so detailed and smart. i hope she looks back on her childhood with fond memories of how things were.

black friday affair

We love to get out among the craziness of black friday. i am not sure why but we always seem to have good times. this year taylor lee joined the sisters and we did the shopping. we took connie which added a new touch this year. we got a few great deals and ended the night at 4;00am asleep in connie. taylor took one for the team and drove the sleepy sisters home. it was a fun night with good memories.

Skiing 2011

our little 4 year old ski bunny. i was not sure if we were going to try skiing with her this year, but she begged us to let her. so we rented her a set and off she went. we learned on the bunny slope 4x's and then headed to the top. she skied all the way down with no complaints and little help. all she kept saying was " lets go, i need to catch the big kids" we were so proud and she will be passing us by in a few years.

my entire gaol for the trip was a "family Pic" well it was a mess trying to get it taken and a even bigger mess to get the picture. but it was all worth it. its so nice to have both sets of parents in one big happy family pic. it really meant a lot to the 3 of us girls, to travel and have memories with both of our parents. we all shared some good laughs, and it made for a wonderful family trip.

we went to Steam Boat, CO. December 2011
me and my favorite man. the very first day skiing me and len ventured out alone. he was to excited not to ski that day. and it ended up being so nice. we went at our own pace and enjoyed each other. he really is a "one of a kind creature" he is fun, cool, calm, collected, smart, handsome, and all together perfect. {most of the time} i hope that i make him as happy as he makes me.