i often find myself asking or even begging God WHY, WHY, and WHY can these crazy no good moms get pregnant over and over and i can't. Fertility struggles are not for the Week hearted. i mean it takes a Physical, and emotional toll on your heart and soul. in so many ways its one of the most frustrating and hurtful thing to struggle with. it takes your heart from anxiousness to excitement and failure all in the matter of a month. the meds make you INSAIN, the intimacy that it should take to have a baby is literally OUT the door. It is Rough !!!
at the end of this journey i hope i have a bundle of joy to love on and i hope that i have no time to write a blog about my life. but i also know that God feels the parts of your heart that you seek Him hardest at. he gives you peace in the midst of a hormone storm. He gives and takes or choose not to make life. He is the Almighty and He knows what should of, could of, and would of. He answers each burning question and blesses you when your not looking.
whatever happens i know For Sure that i am blessed beyond what i deserve.
You have such a good attitude. I cannot imagine how hard it must be for you to have to deal with this! We were only trying for a short time and I realized what an emotional roller coaster it was just waiting to see if it "stuck." I always wonder why it seems like all these losers can have tons of kids and wonderful parents have to struggle. I guess that is something that is just beyond my understanding at this point. I'll say a prayer for y'all. Love ya!
ReplyDeleteLove you Cass! It will happen at just the right time, God's time. Continue to stay strong and positive. I tried for fifteen years before we had the triplets. That was an extremely long time to wait it seemed like, but not to our Creator. His timing is perfect and I know how hard at times it may seem and God knows as well. Emrie is so blessed to have you as a mom. I look forward to seeing more Hays' babies soon! You are always in my prayers Cassie! Love, love, love you bunches!
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