Guess What happened.......

Date 10/10/12
Time 7:00 am 
i wake up, start the day running.  my plan was to take em to school and come home and do a few things, get ready ect....
i take her to school, call the doctor..... i asked "can i come today b/c i have a funeral in the morning?" she said come on up.  i leave purcell at 8:15.  i get to Moore, my mom calls "stop where you are, i am coming." so i gather her, we go to the doctor office, they draw blood, and tell me it will be 1 hour.  
LONGEST HOUR EVER btw. 
We come back to norman, kill time, shop, eat.  
Place: Target parking lot. they call and with all 4 of my favorite nurses on speaker phone.....
"CONGRATULATIONS MOMMA, YOUR PREGNANT"

My mom screamed, i cryed. and we sit for about 2 minuets in shock.  I call Len, he said "that's the best news i have ever heard"  mom called nana, chles, and Mac.  we all sit in the parking lot on 2 phones just crying and carrying on. 

it was such a shock, bc i had been trying to prepare for bad news.  i was trying so hard not to let myself jump on and be excited, yet with that call i had to turn my thoughts all the way around.  

This fertility journey has been the very hardest, most disappointing, hurtful, and painful thing i have ever faced.  However in that very moment I would do it all again.  the whole journey seemed long, but in that moment i forgot all about the pain.  i cannot describe the over whelming joy that fills my heart.  i feel so blessed that God heard my cry, heard all the prayers on our behalf.  He makes beautiful things.  my ring tone on my phone is "The hurt and heeler" and those words played so strong in my heart. the words in the song that i have held throughout out this journey...."i am alive, even though a part of me has died.  you take my heart and breath it back to life."  that is my testimony of what God has done for me.  He is all knowing, smart, gracious, and He gave us this precious gift.  We could not be more thankful to Him.

                 Consider these BOOTS filled  !!!!!!!


i know a lot of people.  i have was born and raised in this town, i am always a open book about life.  therefor i cannot count the many 100's of people that have called, text, emailed, and facebooked me.  it means so much to me that people remember about me during their own busy life's.  i can't list you all but please know that you have all brought me such comfort through-out this time.  i am thankful that so many people love and support us.    

Hormones, marriage, prayers.

update time.....
So i went to the doctor last Thursday and i was on target to start the process.  they started my shots that day + 5 days of grey pills, and 5 days of blue pills.  let me just tell you that this lethal combination of shots, and pills left for a HOT MESS.  i was out of my mind crazy, i felt like i had a mental breakdown, was out of control, and HATED the way they made me feel.  i have never understood suicide, but i can now say that i see how someone can feel so OUT OF CONTROL.  it was a intense 5 days.  by day 4, it was a problem, then day 5 came and oh mercy.  by 9:00 monday evening, i could not maintain a good thought.  so my advice to anyone who has to go through this, stay home, have NO contact with people. and avoid any commitments.  i however did the opposite which resulted in me unleashing on my partner.  sensitivity is not his strong point, so that was not pretty.  we made it through, but it was touch and go.  he does in fact love me, however he is not the best at showing that.  i was in over-drive and it was rough.  but at the end of the day or week He is mine and he gets the crazy cass.  marriage is not always a picked fence with 1.5 kids in the yard playing ball.  its more like 2 different people trying to merge on the hwy. someone has to let a car in.  the end result is there is NO one else in the world i would rather merge with.     
Tuesday finally got here,and we went and had the Embryos, (3 to be exact) put inside me.  i was then on strict back bed rest for 24 hours, then normal bed rest for another 24 hours, then just been taking it easy.  i feel  fine, healthy, and semi-hormaly balanced.  i am still doing a shot a day, and 3 white pills.  but all in all i feel good.  i am SO ready for THURSDAY to get here.  i will go do blood work and then get the results.  i don't know if i am more excited to know, or more excited to be done.  its a toss up for me.  either way i am excited for something.  We have already stated the regular adoption process,  and we go to our adoption seminar friday and saturday.  we also got our back ground checks in the mail today. (they were good fyi)  so we are 100% committed to that if we get a negative result thursday.  
We know that GOD has picked a baby for us, and we just can't wait for him to show us the plan. 
         Thank you friends, family, my mom who has given me every shot, my sister and tucker for being here for bed rest, my church family for feeding us, and my hubs for not jumping this crazy ship.   We are overwhelmed with prayer from all sorts of people.  i cannot count how many people have touched my heart through this process.